The Eternal Session

Start with Langkawi first. The original plan was to have to holiday there with my family, joined by few friends, then we twisted a little bit; with only my parents and few friends, and alter it a bit few weeks later: no parents and one Canadian friend with few girls from Carleton and a boy plus me and Harun. So it began this holiday that has long been planned since late January this year. After we manage few problems with accommodation and transportation, on 15th of June we departed from LCCT to Langkawi. My original plan was to take a bus the night before 15 June, alone and arrive at Kuala Perlis next morning. But after hearing that all my friends will be going by planes, my dad immediately arranged and booked me a return ticket, same time and flight with Harun and Lindsey. So we departed at 810 in the morning and arrived an hour later, with the others arrived at noon and Khamsani from Kuala Kedah jetty at 1330.

We stayed at Twin Peaks Chalet in town of Kuah, and met Kham at the Giant Eagle place, a very famous landmark in Langkawi. After we took 20 something pictures around the eagle, we drive to airport to pick up Aini, and we have a damn expensive lunch there. Not regret with what happened, we off to Gunung Machincang also known as Langkawi Cable Car. Langkawi was so damn hot, luckily that there was no rain during our stay at Langkawi. At the top of the mountain, there is a hanging bridge, not really hanging but you can feel the shakes when you up there doing some crazy stunt. After exposed ourselves to the sun for about 2 hours, later that evening we went to Seven Wells, a waterfall that presumably have seven falls from top. There are so many stories surrounding Pulau Langkawi, its not enough to be told here. Go there, and learn it.

Later that night, after we get back to the chalet; have a shower, change clothes and sleep a bit, we went to Cenang Beach area to find a place for dinner. It was my idea to pick a restaurant with lot of customers so that we know that the restaurant’s food is good. Lindsey then picked a restaurant that expensive by it looks, and yes it was! But the expensive thing wasn’t really expensive when you eat in a large group, which in the end it was me finishing all the remains. DBKL aku nie…

Next morning, again with original planning that we designed the night before, we off to Underwaterworld Langkawi at Cenang. We don’t have any great time actually over there, but it was fun to see some of the penguins been feed by the workers, and the corals. Okay, not going into Geology stuff here (I was so excited at the top of Machincang because of the outcrops). After that, around 1200 at noon, we went to Cenang Beach, and it was there the original schedule twisted by Amirah (thank god that you found the Paklong Legend). With only RM 40, we take the Island Hopping package: from Awana Porto Malai, we went to Island of Pregnant Maiden (Pulau Dayang Bunting), then to see Eagle Feeding (we were fortunate to see two lost dolphins there) and finally to Wet Rice Island (Pualu Beras Basah). At Pulau Beras Basah, I had an accident, my feet get stabbed by the sea anemone (what Lindsey called) or known as Landak Laut, yang hitam tajam-tajam tu. The pain was an unforgettable moment in my life so far, the only original experience that I brought back from Langkawi. The true souvenir!

After whole that stuff, we went back to Cenang beach to cure my feet and the let the others to play their own game: Harun and Lindsey with their para-gliding (Lindsey had a crash landing), Khamsani as a watcher for both of them; Amirah, Fana, Ina with their Jet Ski and Aini left alone with nothing to play. During that night, the last night at Langkawi, we had a seafood dinner near the beach (actually the same spot I put lemon on my feet) and the other three girls excluding Aini had their great time at Spa. I ate lot of bivalves (kerang), and become the DBKL again. Then my eyes get irritated, I rubbed it, and at 2200 after all of us went to the spa and waited for them, my right eyes swelled. Allergy to the seafood, not my entire life, but lately it getting worse. I wonder why. Late that night, we played card game, while the girls went shopping for sourvenirs. That was around 2300 to 0000 midnight. I wished I had more money…

The next morning, at 1000 in the morning, we left the chalet and went to the airport. To everyone surprise, all of us (including Kham) had the same flight at 1145. We played few last card game in the plane, and split on our own at LCCT, ending the 3 days trip with big smile and sweet memories (I hope everyone has).

Gila malas nak update blog. Aku tukar design untuk menyampaikan mesej malas aku kepada semua. Sorry for those that keep checking my blog for the past one month, I am damn lazy nak write stuff.need to get new keyboard if nak start writing balik. can use my laptop.but like to stay with my desktop (vista OS).hehe…

20 days since last post, 4 days after final exam ended. Since then my Geology Field School has been going from the first day after final paper done. Begin at 9 a.m until 11 p.m. (the most) everyday, I am sorry for not able to write any new post, reporting my complex life to you all. Well now, I’m here, the complexity of geological formations in the area of Wolfville and later of Antigonish (somewhere around NS) won’t be revealed for your information. The purpose of having the field school is to get the knowledge on how to do mapping, measuring dip and strike, mapping structural contour, colouring different bedrock, and so on about geological map skills. Later on, learning the complexity of igneous, metamorphic and carbonate rocks. It is, for your info, is a pass and fail course and won’t affect your GPA, i.e. don’t take to much work and energy into it, relax. Man, how do I come to be like this in the first place. Fate brings you here man, just shut up!

Result already came out last two days. I am so surprised I did so well, more than I expected. Haha, boleh ler duk bilik mahal camni. I can’t wait ’til 15 of May, flying back home, will be seeing my mom, dad, sis(s), anak-anak buah yang comel. Before that, having few blast days in Ottawa, or O-town by Mr. Merbuk, and few days in downtown Toronto. Gonna meet my old best buddy again, Baim, seniors that helped me a lot, Kak Zidah perhaps. Those unlucky guys and girls who are kelam kabut, or by scientific term we can call it home-sick syndrome, you guys make me disappointed. Anyways, I was like that too last year, but I felt the sad life on the last day in O-town. Turning 21 in less than one month.

I want to write something about gaming side of my life. I had this idea since last two weeks, during the exam weeks. But, maybe some other time when I am free, totally free 24 hours boredom, I’ll write about it. I just realized that the top post of my blog is the one that tell about the Kingdom Hearts, and latest post. I think that if I keep on writing about the gaming stuff, maybe my blog stats will rise, and what’s the point of this? So that I can keep on writing, improving my skills, and start the big plan of creating fictions. I try my best to improve, but I can’t see it by myself actually. Did I change during the last 2 years period of studying in Canada?. Only you know.

Another usual remarks, few movies I managed to watch last few days. Even though the field school is like hell torturing me deep inside burning mad, I try to grab every hours that I can get to watch some good movies (some not).

Mr. & Mrs. Smith. Finally, I’ve watched this film, after long anticipation from 2005. A good film. The chemistry of Jolie and Brad Pitt (yes, my favorite actor) was perfectly shown in this film. Maybe from this kind of familiarity between them that merge them together in real world.

Cloverfield. This movie is crazy. Using a concept of mobile camera (or handycam), the story is amazing. It ahs the same old theme of monster destruction, just like Godzilla, but because of different and unique visual presentation the movie scares some shit out of me. The visual effects, together with the panic and suspense situation, from the beginning of the monster attack on New York, until mission to bombing the city (the whole city) just to kill it, and the survival of the camera user and his friends. It is a must watch movie, but be aware that the movie can cause some headache and nausea after 1 hour (the movie itself is not that long, to keep people from the dizziness).

Training Day. An old movie. Just watch it. Not to give further comment or review.

Hero. A Japanese movie, follow up from the amazing series by the same name. Starred by Takuya Kimura, also another one of my favorite actor alive. As usual, for all of you guys that have watched the series before, the movie still carry the same familiarity of the theme, especially justice has to be done on the idiot. The movie however exploit more scene in courtroom, which we seldom saw in the series, and the tracing investigation to Korea from Japan. The movie marked the first time Takuya share a screen with Korean actors. Takako Matsu made the movie has it own peculiar beauty. The supporting casts, such as Hiroshi Abe and others, made the movie funny as ever. A good one to me.

CJ7, by Stephen Chow (also acted in it) can be considered good. It is a very entertaining father-son movie, where the father work hard just to sent his son to private school, and can’t affors to buy any toys for the son. One day he accidentally found an alien-like dog for his son. The movie is not that funny in comparison with Chow’s earlier movies, but for the theme and CGI effects, it can be considered worth to watch.

Memento, by Christopher Nolan. Also an old movie, made in 2000. It is a totally wicked movie, non-linear narration, and reverse. Not the movie itself rewinding, but the plot itself is unique. Its not like Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind, where computer graphic enriched the motion of the film, but Memento rely more in story editing, and Christopher Nolan genius. A worthy movie to put in my Golden list (it never exists).

The Bank Job. A British Movie, starred by Jason Statham, and some other British actors which not so known in Hollywood. A very good movie, funny and interesting. The thing is about watching UK movies, I need a good subtitle, if not I’m gonna lost some ideas what is going on within that movie. Can I considered this movie as twisted ending? I don’t know. The story is fictional at viewers point, but it is claimed to be based o true event that happen sometime in London during the late 70’s. it’s about a biggest heist (claimed) ever in London, where the group of the robbers realised that they are robbing the bank for the sake of MI5 of British undercover agencies, retrieving the Princess naked photos exploited by the “revolutionist”. The consequences of their action led to the death of the members, when one of the deposit box belong to a corrupted club manager - seeking to exploit the dark secret of the MP - hunt them down.

There Will Be Blood. The best. Slow pace, but best. Daniel Day Lewis is an amazing actor, he can be into the character of a man hungry of power and name so authentic that even I can feel his own emotion. The story is also about oil, (hah!) another geology stuff but not that detail. The movie try to show that money and authority can’t buy all the happiness. Don’t take lightly on God fates, is another thinkable them that you can see within the plot of the film. Even the false preacher too can have his own doom by pursuing money in the wrong way.

Thats all folks, for now. Still has a lot to share here, but time constraint killing me!!

P/S: Cuci bosan gila, kalau compare ngan Baik Punya Cilok. Takda poster atau gambar untuk post ni, aku takda masa.

About two weeks now since I last updated my blog. Promise made to myself that I will try to update every week if I can, but the premise is made in conjunction with “try” and “if”.  Uh,  what the hell is wrong with the sentence, I don’t get it, nevermind. Someone is good enough to play on words, well I’m not. If something like that happened, it is nonetheless a grammatical error which I couldn’t spot. Back to original idea. Why I can’t get myself to update the blog last week, and why right now I don’t have any idea to share with the readers which happen to enjoy my blog as they would enjoy a reality show sponsored by local mobile phone company.

Last weekend, on the 29th of March 2008, an event which is popular in North America continent, called Relay For Life. From wikipedia it is an annual fundraising event to support those poor souls who have cancer in their brain, testis, ovary, lungs, and breast. It is an overnight event, from 7 p.m to 7 a.m next day (30th). It a hell long night event of doing nothing but walking around the ice ring (without the ice of course) to remember those who fight further in the battle against the malicious cancer, lighting luminaries (candle inside a lunch bag) and stay awake for 12 hours. It is a memorable event for someone who has cancer or relative that has cancer, and not entertaining for those that had exam next morning, or totally healthy family (which don’t have any cancer records). I saw my friend’s wife cried that night beside the luminary of her aunt (maybe), remembering the days she still alive, fighting the cancer from within. I tried remembering back someone from my family who died of cancer, and I do have one, he just gone last year, few days after I came back to Canada. Living as a wealthy and generous person, he always gave me duit raya yang paling banyak antara ramai-ramai of my living uncles. And also, a person came across my mind, not from my family, but well known to many Malaysian, the late wife of our Prime Minister. I forgot her name. At least I remember, that is good right? No? Too bad. So, that was my night last weekend, with final lab exam on the next morning (31st), I have less than 24 hours to study, and shit! I thought that was the biggest mistake that I ever done so far in my life. I knew the morning of the final lab exam, I am going to fail the exam. To my disbelief, and everyone too, I did not fail. Not an A- mark, but at least that is enough by not getting an F. Also because I didn’t have enough time to study, what I got is what I deserved to get.

I am listening to a jazz music right now, and been listening to them since last few weeks. Sometimes I switch to breakbeat music, but that doesn’t change that much. What kind of jazz I’ve been listening too is a nu-jazz (modern jazz some would say) and breakbeat-bossa nova. Beats Antique, a breakbeat kind of trip-hop group has a great range of exotic music: middle-east style (the belly dancing music), and Indian sitar. Its reminded me to Amon Tobin’s Sultan Drops beginning. What kind of music I’ve been listening for this past 2 years is unpredictable. Totally change upside down. From System, to RHCP, to Beatles, to DJ Shadow, to Cinematic Ochestra, to Quantic, to Aphex Twin, to Squarepusher, to Animal Collective, but never to metal and trash. I do like progressive metal by The Black Mages and electo-house from Justice, but never those group of Alexisonfire, and those shouting-vocalist bands. With this awkward taste of music I have developed, I felt no undesired atmosphere when I stepped in a club with those lost-from-the-world inhabitants that keep on touching the sky, reaching the thin air of lust and empty emotions.

Back to my original idea. I managed to watch few movies since the real weekend. First start with Hotel Rwanda. A very good movie, someone claimed to cry when watching the film. Well not sad enough compare to One Liter (yes! that is the saddest show I ever watched, and I’m going to watch it again some other time). The story has the same premise with The Schindler’s List, about how a man bribed the local officer to protect the haunted tribe called Tutsi (Jews in TSL). Since Paul (played by Don Cheadle) is from Hutu and very wealth-known hotelier in Rwanda, he used all his effort to save his wife from Tutsi clan and those who searched him for protection. The film has less brutality than TSL, but yet the theme of humanity is carried perfectly throughout the film. Then from here I searched for another movie that carry the same theme, but focus on the notorious figure, The Last King Of Scotland - Idi Amin. With no theme of humanity such as Rwanda, I praised the film because of Forest Whitaker portraying Idi Amin very well perfect. I haven’t seen how the real Idi Amin would be, but his character emotion of someone easily lost their mind and start to kill suspicious people is well carried by him. Overall, the movie is good, but not enough to impress me to the end. Somehow I didn’t feel pity for Dr. Garrigan (played by James McAvoy) because most of his problem and ultimate punishment at the film’s climax is from his previous stubborn-egoistic ideas.

I watched The Good, The Bad and The Ugly - an old spaghetti western movie. Played by Clint Eastwood, I don’t want to talk much about this film. I also watched Green Street, a story about non-violent journalist kicked out from Harvard, went to UK and create friendship with Hooligans of West Ham United, came back to States (after some crazy-spirit-building-event of fighting and heartbreaking moment) and take bake his seat at Harvard from the guy who made him expelled. The film is so much associated with this good friend of mine that had been talking about it since Paleozoic era with the strong emotional quote “Stand your ground and fight!” and the Bubbles Song. After my trip to London than I realized what the movie is all about without even watching it yet (one of my buddy there is a biggest fan of West Ham United). Than I watched a great movie which also have been heard since Archean era: Fight Club.

Twisted ending, this kind of movie which I have been looking for. Complex plot, the cinematic style of the director David Fincher, new kind of viewing taste! Watching a film is also an act of indulging something, rather than watching it, with similar presentation again and again (macam filem-filem melayu), sometimes people do get bored, even how good the movie is (like the recent one I watched, Lord of War) . Fight Club is one of my golden list (I don’t have a silver list). To everyone surprise too, I have to confess that I like every film which has Brad Pitt in it (except Mr. and Mrs. Smith, which I haven’t watch yet). Hehe, jangan fikir bukan-bukan, tapi aku admit aku suka cara Brad Pitt berlakon: bersahaja. Another good twisted ending movie I watched last week: Lucky Number Slevin. Nothing particular about this movie, everything seems fine until the end where element of surprise take place.

Kala Malam Bulan Mengambang arahan Mamat Khalid memang serius best. Dapat terasa balik aura lawak dari filem Rock, dimana Mamat cuba jadikan filem noir (hitam putih dan tema detektif) sebagai sebuah meta-komedi. Mamat bukan sahaja pandai bermain dengan watak, tetapi dengan suasana sekeliling (nak cari sesuatu yang berwarna tetapi dalam filem hitam dan putih, Karam Singh Walia copycat, Komunis cakap German, mak ayah selalu follow anak). Penyakit apa yang kena kat Rosyam Nor pun aku tak tahu, tapi aku ada tengok cerita bertemakan noir gak baru-baru ni: The Black Dahlia.

Anyways, if you need any information more than what I have given here, use Google lah! So lazy right now, going to bed…eh…watch movie first….Becoming Jane…

Hotel Rwanda

The Last King of Scotland

Fight Club Poster

Panjang sangat title dia…

Okay, today I’m going to write something personal and not in English, of course. I’m growing painful with my grammatical mistake and error every time I write in English. My geol prof today commented me on my grammar mistakes, “keep your eyes open!!”. Duh, I am going to be a successful geologist one day, and need to write thesis to complete my honors degree, thus I need to increase my level of communications skills in english and writing. How? How do I do that? Need to practice writing and talking? I don’t have time to talk, talk, and talk. I do have confidence, but can these Cdn accept my idea of conversation?. Different culture have teach me that they like to talk about how to get drunk, enjoy, and similar stuff, but me, as one of the “ilmuan” like to talk about education, politics, something that knowledge-oriented talk, not some dirty confusing mind shit! Anyways, while I’m typing this post, the wind outside is so brutal, that my seems-to-be closed windows shaking like hell, and the wind still able to penetrate trough the narrow sill that caused my thumbs hurt hitting the keyboard. Here goes my personal feeling and side story.

Satu ketika dulu, mak aku selalu tanya “bila besar nak jadi apa?”. Jawapan aku hanya satu: Juruterbang aka pilot. Entah kenapa, aku suka sangat naik kapal terbang, suka melancong sana sini, tengok budaya orang lain, tengok atendan kapal baik lelaki dan perempuan. Makanan pun sedap, gaji lumayan, takyah belajar jauh-jauh dan susah. Tak pernah terlintas dalam jawapan aku, atau kepala aku nak jadi Doktor, atau sesuatu yang memang diluar jangkaan maka ayah kakak-kakak aku. Ada juga kadang-kadang, disebabkan profesion atuk dan ayah aku cikgu, aku nak jadi pensyarah universiti, tapi tak tahu bidang apa, main suka-suka sebut jer. Aku masa tu takdalah budak mana pun, dah sekolah rendah, kira dah boleh membezakan baik dan buruk. Bila aku mula masuk sekolah menengah baru aku dapat nampak apa patut aku jadi bila besar nanti. Dari situ aku bertekad jadi jurutera aka engineer. Ni semua sebab pakcik aku yang berjaya tak ingat dunia, dan pada dasarnya dia adalah seorang civil engineer. Punyalah tekun aku belajar, semata-mata nak kejar pakcik aku, nak pergi Jerman nak ambil sekolah dekat sana, nak bawak balik ilmu orang-orang barat yang pandai buat kereta, lebuhraya, banggunan-banggunan, jambatan, kapal-kapal di laut dan udara, robot, dan sebagainya lagi. Akhirnya, apa aku dapat adalah sesuatu yang memang tak pernah terlintas (walaupun aku pernah dengar sebelum ni) dalam mana-mana bidang atau career yang aku pernah tulis masa sesi kaunseling dengan kaunselor sekolah atau mana-mana perbualan dengan orang ramai.

Kalau nak diikutkan cerita asal, aku ada juga dapat tawaran MARA untuk belajar dekat German, ikut kursus selama 2 dan 1/2 tahun kat GMI, terbang ke sana pada lewat 2007 dan sambung lagi untuk 3 tahun. Aku ada dengar kalau diikutkan kehebatan individu, dia boleh sambung buat Master atau kerja terus kat sana. Begitulah pencapaian aku yang paling berbaloi pernah dilakukan setakat ini, aku pergi jauh dari rumah ke Maktab tercinta di Kg. Separap, aku belajar demi mak ayah aku yang tua di rumah, untuk kakak-kakak aku yang bergitu prihatin dekat aku dari kecil lagi, aku nak balas jasa mereka. Tapi Allah tu sayang dekat aku, sayang sangat pada masa tu, aku rasa, dia lonjakkan lagi rezeki aku, tapi untuk ambil bahagian rezeki itu, aku kena buat congak dan logis yang satu hari nanti akan ada efeknya yang tersendiri. Allah bagi aku tajaan dari Pet, dan bidang yang aku pilih untuk sesi temuduga sebagai satu cubaan (nak keluar negara, siapa taknak) tanpa mengharapkan nasib yang baik. Oleh kerana sponsorship Pet ni sangatlah selamat untuk masa depan aku (juga pelajar-pelajar lain yang terpilih), juga untuk mak ayah aku yang nak sangat aku ambil tajaan ni (senang dapat kerja, senang dapat duit nak balas jasa diorang balik), aku tinggalkan cita-cita aku yang aku dah plan dengan baik sekali sejak dari tingkatan satu lagi.

Mula-mula tu, aku ada juga rasa macam serba salah, tak puas hati jadi Geologist ni. Time dekat kolej, aku ada fikir sejenak nak tinggalkan Pet, tidak apa, aku boleh cari balik duit tebus kat Pet, nak ambil bidang Jurutera kat GMI tu, peluang masih terbuka. Itu ternyata adalah fikiran yang paling teruk dan bahaya sekali. Kasihan kat mak ayah aku tu, bukannya ada pekerjaan, seorang pesara, seorang surirumah. Kakak-kakak aku? Semua dah ada keluarga, ingat aku sorang jer ker diorang nak jaga? Kesian juga kat penjamin-penjamin aku. Memang teruk apa aku nak buat masa tu. Nak taknak, aku kena juga buka hati aku, tanamkan semangat jangan kalah, aku dah sampai sini, satu perjalanan jauh, bukan senang orang nak dapat tajaan Pet. Kawan-kawan pun dah stabil, life makin enjoy, dah nampak masa depan yang agak stabil, jangan patah balik! Teruskan! Alhamdulillah, setakat ni ilmu geologi yang aku terima ni takda satu pun yang aku letak taraf paling rendah sekali, semuanya seronok. Belajar satu benda yang baru, out of my life’s norm, kadang-kadang tu ada juga rasa pelik apa yang aku belajar pasal batu, pasal tanah, pasal evolusi, pasal konformiti, pasal kitaran Milankovitch, pasal pemanasan global, pasal laut, pasal haiwan invertebrate, pasal dan pasal lagi. Tak pernah aku datang situasi “hilang dalam kegelapan” pasal apa aku belajar, ni sebabnya aku letak taraf ilmu aku belajar itu, ilmu yang aku akan gunakan satu hari nanti pada tahap paling tinggi. Aku ubah mindset aku dari jurutera (malah sampai hari ni aku suka baca media-media yang berunsurkan physics dan technology) kepada Geologist, sebab apa? Sebab aku sudah sampai sini, sebab kehidupan ni bukan main-main, sebab aku gunakan kekuatan akal dan emosi aku untuk berfikir, affect and effect kalau aku nak patah balik.

Sudahlah tu, kenapa tiba-tiba kau cakap maca orang hilang akal jer? Aku cuma nak mengingatkan diri sendiri, atau sesiapa yang kat luar sana apa yang aku dah lalui, apa yang aku rasa dan moraliti diri aku ni yang aku rasa cukup puas hati, takat ni lah. Akan datang juga atu hari nanti, aku jadi tak betul, rasa macam nak mati jer, kecewa dengan diri sendiri atas perbuatan bodoh yang dilakukan tanpa akal dan logis.

Untuk negara ku Malaysia, aku cukup terkejut tapi dapat aku jangkakan dari dahulu lagi yang akan berlakunya pertukaran kuasa atas pilihan rakyat yang telah sekian lamanya sengsara atas perbuatan pentadbiran yang berat sebelah dan korup. Sejauh mana berat sebelah itu, adalah bukti-buktinya (aku malas nak ulas, sebab aku bukan pemerhati yang expert dalam politik) yang telah dikeluarkan oleh parti pembangkang menjelang pilihan raya, memang kerja yang memuaskan. Walaupun parti paling berpengaruh masih menang majoriti, tapi hasrat para pembangkang dan rakyat berhasil untuk menolak 2/3 pengusaan mereka dalam parlimen. Tahniah diucapkan.

Pagi lepas pengumuman, hari isnin di Malaysia, aku dengar suara mak yang penat duduk depan tv nak tengok siapa yang menang. Dia kata kawasan aku tinggal masih dikuasai BN, tapi dengan wakil rakyat yang baru. Maybe sebab dia baru dan kurang korup (atau tak korup langsung), tu sebab dia menang. Tapi kawasan lain kata mak aku, hancur bagai dilanda tsunami. Jangan salahkan keluarga aku yang pro-BN, mereka orang lama, orang yang pernah merasa kegembiraan hidup dengan Parti Perikatan, hidup dalam ketakutan tahun 1969 dahulu. Meraka ada pengalaman melihat bagaimana negara ini dicorakkan sejak zaman kemerdekaan 51 tahun yang lepas. Aku membesar bagaikan orang yang sudah melihat negara ini jauh dari orang lain yang sebaya dengan aku. Kadang-akadang aku rasa macam dah tua jer diri aku ni. Jauh sangat aku melalut ni.

Aku harap dapatlah kerajaan “Malaysia Baru” ini mengubah apa yang boleh diubah yang sekaligus mengubah nasib rakyat yang tertindas, dan membawa Malaysia terus maju. Janganlah asyik nak gaduh nak jer sesama sendiri dan antara kaum. Aku datang keluar negara ni cukup bangga bila orang cakap aku ni orang multicultural, banyak budaya dan bahasa aku tahu, sedangkan 2-3 ayat jer aku tahu di luar bahasa ibunda (selain bahasa inggeris). Orang ambil negara aku sebagai contoh negara islam berbilang bangsa yang sampai hari ni masih mengekalkan keamanan dan kemajuan ekonomi yang pesat, walaupun tak sepesat China dan Singapore. Aku cuma tersenyum sambil kata “thank you”.

Aku ada lihat akhbar online (utusan, malaysiakini) pasal isu DEB di Pulau Pinang dan Selangor. Aku ada belajar sejarah dulu yang Dasar Ekonomi Baru or New Economic Policy (NEP) ni banyak membantu nasib orang-orang melayu yang jauh tersorok dalam tanah akibat kemiskinan yang rata-ratanya dari ketidakupayaan untuk mengembangkan perniagaan. Aku tidak tahu samada ketidakupayaan ni datangnya dari taraf pendidikan orang melayu, atau mana-mana unsur luar yang menekan mereka duduk jer kat bawah tu. Aku kena buka balik buku teks sejarah tingkatan 5. DEB ini ada jangka masa untuk sampai gol dia, iaitu tahun 1991 seingat aku. Kalau nak diikutkan, DEB ni dah hilang dah pun, dan digantikan dasar-dasar yang dicipta Tun M dan seterusnya oleh tragic hero negara kita, Pak Lah. Tapi, bagi segilintir masyarakat melayu, adalah perlunya DEB untuk kemudahan orang-orang susah. Erti kata lain, senang untuk orang yang memang sudah senang. Ada antara teman aku selalu berpesan, kalau nak hilangkan sistem “gimik” DEB ni, ibarat menghilangkan keistimewaan orang melayu hendaklah dilakukan secara ansur-ansuran. Janganlah terus padam benda tu tanpa fikir masak-masak, dan diperlukan juga ayat-ayat yang manis dari pemimpin. Aku selalu tenangkan dia, kata ada lah jalan pemimpin BA ni nak buat. Maklumlah, dia pun dari Penang. Tapi aku sentiasa fikir, kalau hak istimewa tu hilang, macam mana dengan kuasa dan sistem diraja kita? Bukan ker raja-raja kita lindung benda tu semua, kalau dah takda, apa lagi yang boleh mereka protect?

Entah apa aku merepek, aku nak tamatkan blog post aku hari ini dengan mengatakan sebagaimana sesetengah orang diluar sana berpesan, jangan gabra sangat bila DEB taknak digunakan di PP dan Selangor. Aku percaya, aku harus percaya yang pemimpin-pemimpin parti yang menang ni ada agenda dan rancangan yang rapi untuk menjadikan Malaysia berjaya. Juga untuk di Selangor, negeri kelahiranku, tahniah diatas pelantikan MB baru, Tan Sri Khalid Ibrahim. Semoga dia dapat menunaikan hasrat dia (atau janji) untuk membangunkan orang melayu Selangor ke peringkat antarabangsa dan orang cina mengembangkan perniagaan sekali dengan kebangkitan negara China. Apa agaknya silibus untuk orang melayu S’gor kita boleh pergi antarabangsa? Mungkin dengan mengembangkan ilmu di kepala bukan di dada, sebagaimana dilakukan aku. Kenapa tidak disekalikan semua untuk meraih ekonomi dan bersama mendirikan wi-fi di estet…

Selamat malam.