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I watched this ad in cinema few weeks ago, and again last Tuesday. It is very interesting because of the song, and the cast. Then I thought, what the hell is this ad? Is it promotion to save the world or any kind of international brand that were always featured before the show in cinema? Finally I realized that it was Discovery Channel Commercial. Enjoy!

Agak lama juga dah tak menulis (menaip) dalam bahasa Melayu. Last skali pun entah bila, tak ingat. Kali ni menulis pun adalah untuk meluangkan masa lapang kebosanan di rumah. Dulu, bila menulis dalam Malay, haruslah mengikut tatabahasa yang betul dan penggunaan ayat yang lengkap. Sekarang aku dah tak pandang tu semua. Suka hati akulah nak tulis apa.

Dalam masa cuti musim panas (summer) tahun, aku rasa ini adalah percutian yang paling seronok dari segi pengalaman, hiburan dan kawan – kawan yang ada. Tapi, secara mendalamnya, atau sebenarnya ini adalah percutian yang paling sakit sekali. Ianya cuma satu sebab sahaja: DUIT. Kalau benda ni tgak ada dan tak cukup, memang sakit nak parah kalau berjalan. Bukan tu sahaja, kerana duitlah aku rasa segan dan susah nak keluar dengan kawan- kawan.

Pertamanya, segan kalau nak ajak makan. Aku pilihan makan hanya food court atau maling mahal pun KFC dan McD. Tapi bila keluar dengan member yang berhasil dari segi pendapatan (aku tak bekerja kat U), diorang mesti nak makan tempat mahal. Aku bukannya takda duit, tapi duit tu tak masuk. Ni lagi satu benda yang aku pening nak fikirkan, kalau difikirkan selalu, hati aku jadi tak tenang, sakit hati, konfius, konfius sebab apa? Ada sebab -sebab dia nanti aku kongsikan.

Sekarang ni ada lagi 2 minggu setengah sebelum aku pulang ke Canada, menyambung lagi pengajia untuk 2 tahun lagi sebelum aku grad 2010. Ni satu hal gak lagi. Banyak benda pusing – pusing kepala aku time tengah menulis post ni.

Aku nak terus berjalan kat Malaysia sebelum aku balik. Erti kata lain, aku nak pergi mana – mana pantai yang cantik dan menenangkan perasaan, melepaskan kegianan sebelum balik ke U. Aku nak pergi mengambil shot -shot yang memuaskan hati sebelum balik. Aku nak terus berjalan, tapi duit dah takda. Sebelum aku balik ke Malaysia last May, Petronas (PET) ada masukkan duit elaun aku untuk bulan May dimana aku sangkakan bernilai penuh 660 dollar. Sebaliknya sangkaan aku meleset, aku cuma dapat 264 sahaja (iaitu 40% dari elaun penuh). Aku dalam panik bila aku buka balik akaun aku secara online. Mana nak korek duit ni….

Akhirnya panik aku tu tersahut oleh mak ayah aku. Dengan ehsan mereka, aku ada RM 1000 untuk sepanjang summer ni. Last year, bila aku balik M’sia 1000 tu cukup – cukup sahaja, aku bertekad kali ni untuk berjimat tahap Dato’ Bahaman (ntah apa metafor), dan akhirnya duit tu memang ada baki dalam 400 lepas habis sahaja 2 percutian yang dirancang rapi tu (Langkawi dan Kelantan). Tapi macam apa yang aku predict, memang tak cukup. Bila Arep balik, that’s gonna be a new story, new excitement. Percutian baru pun muncul, pergi ke Penang. 400 tu memang cukup cantik jugak lah untuk ke Penang, sebab yang kluar just duit makan dan duit bas. Aku habis 100 untuk tu. Then surprisingly, Amir balik. Adeyh…

Dan duit aku flow macam tu jer, kluar habis main bowling, tengok wayang (these 2 things aku tak regret). Then come a great idea lagi: Percutian ke Pulau Redang. Aku cuba meminta ehsan dari kaklong aku pula kali ni. Kaklong aku okay sahaja, tapi mak aku marah aku kikis duit akak aku. Tambahan lagi mak aku sakit – sakit kali ni, kaklong aku komplen kalau aku berjalan jer. Aku tak kisah sangat kalau nak duduk rumah jaga mak, tapi hati tak senang kalau member keluar macam tu jer. Fortunately, Pulau redang punya plan was canceled. Yoho! Tapi belum berakhir lagi…

Lepas habis OBS, member- member mafia aku nak ajak gather. Dengan berbekalkan RM 50 aku sebelum OBS lagi, aku try minta ehsan mak aku untuk paintball game. Flow gila!! Seronok tu memang tercapai, tapi sambil aku duduk semalam sebelum tidur, aku dah lost count pasal money. Trouble. In the end, semalam aku telah mengambil tindakan drastik yang memang aku sudah teringin buat dari dulu. Aku withdraw duit dari akaun Canada yang hanya tinggal 64 dollar sahaja. By now maybe tinggal 2-3 dollar sahaja.

Fikira aku jadi kusut lagi sebab lepas ni Amir dengan Arep ajak pergi Langkawi. For 2nd time, mak aku bsising sebab aku baru jer pergi. Aku give different reason untuk pergi kali ni, tapi tak cukup kuat. Mak aku bising lagi sebab tu semua duit, nanti nak pergi beli baju sut lagi (aku tek pernah ada dan aku perlukan sebab dia essential sepanjang aku hidup kat Acadia). Wargh! Kalau lah PET buat kerja dengan penuh teliti, aku takda susah macam ni.

Pasal duit elaun ni cukup bahaya kalau di bincang. Dengan no further news pasal nak naik elaun from PET, diorang tak pernah buat kerja dengan baik kat Canada. Aku heran kenapa duit transfer from KL boleh lepas untuk students dekat Alberta, tapi for us dekat central dengan east coast, hantar pakai cek. That’s okay lah, then one moment last year diorang dapat atasi masalah ni dan duit kitorang berjaya lepas masuk akaun. Tapi tu cuma sekali jer pernah jadi untuk aku. Lepas tu hantar pakai cek lagi, and without warning pula tu. Aku tak kisah janji duit aku masuk. Summer kali ni aku perlukan duit yang ada. Tapi disebabkan masalah yang tidak dapat dijelaskan disini, duit aku untuk June sampai August diorang hold dulu. Aku terus hantar email lepas aku dapat tahu pasal duit aku hold by PET WDC. Email tu tak berbalas. Sakit hati. Then aku terus contact representative aku kat sana, junior aku Afiqah. Dia explain kat aku yang adjustment dia for May lepas masuk through akaun, but the elaun itself still hantar pakai cek. WTF?? Habis, mana adjustment aku? aku pun send adjust from sekali dengan dia, apsal dia hold duit tu jugak? Yang paling pening sekali, kenapa elaun tak boleh masuk akaun tp adjsutment boleh? Kenapa ESU yang kat KL ni tak cuba sedaya upaya diorang mengatasi masalah transfer error? Tak ada usaha nak buat research ker??? Poon-deck!

Aku nak pergi berjalan one last shot sebelom balik Canada. Aku tak nak kerana duit aku terus hilang benda paling penting macam tu sahaja. Kenapa harus jadi macam tu? Adakah kerana harga minyak…

Kadang – kadang aku pun boleh blame diri aku jugak. Bila tengok kawan – kawan PET aku lain boleh sahaja gagah berjalan. Sebab apa? Sebab diorang bekerja. Aku tidak. Aku blamed diri aku on this matter. Mak aku pun kadang – kadang ungkit pasal benda ni jugak. Bukan sebab aku taknak, tapi takda rezeki. Tapi salah sendiri juga, sebab memilih. Nak yang senang. Kadang – kadang peluang tu ada, tapi terlepas. Tiada siapa pula yang nak menegur. Maybe salah sendiri juga. Tenging-bodoh-sombong.

Aku pessimist tentang life aku, tapi terlampau optimistic dekat manusia lain. Aku tak suka berfikiran buruk terhadap orang lain, itu sikap aku yang susah nak ditukar kebelakangan ni.

Last week was my week off from high civilization and dusty atmosphere of KL. It is not an escapism (or some call it retreat) from the rough life of hectic city. But rather a team building camp sponsored by Petronas and under the coaching of Outward Bound School located in Lumut, Perak. I thought that this camp is a government of Malaysia or any Petronas small division company that is designed to give such training to us. But Outward Bound (OB for short) is an international organization that has it roots in Malaysia for 54 years. Older that Malaysia it self (by 4 years). I’m not gonna babble much on this stuff since my two dearest friends already put up their “awesome” experience in their blogpost. I think I’m gonna give some interesting point that I discovered while I was there.

The participants are divided into 2 major groups, and several “watches” in each group. Total watches = 5. The name was derived from Malaysian Greatest Peaks, such as Tahan, Bubu, Yong Yap, Irau, and Gading. Mine was Tahan, and consists of 6 girls and 7 boys. To my surprise, few people in Tahan are my closest friends, and I have no trouble to blend in (tak kekok lah nak di katakan). Amar and Bart is already my closest partners from STE last 2 years; Afiq, the guy that was kind enough to give me shelter while I was in London last year. I met Keith while I was in WDC (but he has no memories of me); Lutfi a steady and smart guy when I knew him better day by day, and Akmal the funny (that’s all to him) man. The girls are Azy, a girl with perfect English accent; Nadya from CSM; Nis from Missouri; Nabilah together with Norehan from Warwick; and Pam Wen Ai from London (I think she’s in the same school with Azy and Akmal). Enough with introduction, lets move on.

Third day was the beginning of my 2 expeditions in OBS, and it was Kayaking around Pangkor Island (it was named as “Cultural Visit to Pangkor Island”). The day before we had a capsize training in case for any kayakers capsized in the middle of the ocean. Then the trouble came to me again for second time (the first was at Pulau Kapas last year). I was seasick!! Fricking shit trouble for me, and my partner too. I am so sorry. During the training, my kayak was drifted because of accident, and I swam with all my energy for it. Because I’m not a National swimmer, I was terribly exhausted! Then when I have to climb back into my kayak, I have no strength left, and gedebush! Malu aku. Haha. Let’s forget about it, and move for the real kayaking.

After about 4 hours since the start of our expedition, we a re assigned to stop at a narrow beach to eat our lunch. Just before that, we have to raft to wait for the capsized guy to be save. It was that time I *bluekk* and all the kuew teow for breakfast came out, drifted by the waves. After that, I have my focus and energy back, and I start to unleash the power and paddled fast enough to get to the shore and ate my lunch. It was that lunch, the only lunch that I thought to have such a tasty rice. I never taste any good rice before this and after that. Betapa laparnya aku time tu.

After the lunch, we have to continue our kayak again for another 5 hours, against the current (because the water level was raising that time since the sun is on top of my head), and received the prize match that day: SUNBURN. I was totally hangus that day, and you won’t even realize that while kayaking. During this 5 hours that Norehan (my greatest kayak partner) and me have our limit tested. We were told that to kayak to the white tower (the tower was just barely a silhouette at that time), and we did. The tower wasn’t on the shore, but in the ocean, so we were told again for second time to go the Telekom tower (which is a silhouette from the white tower). While we all stopped to wait the guys behind (Harun and the gang), we realized that we were drifted backward by the waves. @#$%^&!!!. So all us at the front decided to keep on paddling and let the late guys towed by rescue boat. Slowly we can see a villa on the hills near the shore. As we kept paddling, we realized to our amazement that the building still keep is small size!!! That moment too, me and Norehan found ourselves are far separated from the herd; the others were moving along the shore, but we were moving across the middle of the strait!!!!. That time I was no longer in the seasick mode, I was invigorated by the villa and Peter the Sea Captain (he can cross the channel from our right and join back the herd with no difficulties, WTF??). Me and Norehan were no longer in easy mode, we push ourselves to the limit and paddle sampai nak tercabut lah lengan. I was cursing the villa with all my heart content (I swear that one day I’m gonna buy/reserved the villa for my future), and the kayak program for wasted 9 hours of my life with sitting in the kayak. Slowly the villa became bigger to our view and Alhamdullilah we managed to join back with the captain. But not yet, the shore was not our main destination, we have to go around the corner. The direction was: go around the corner and along the shore you will see a big coconut tree. So we all move along the shore, past the corner but WTF there was no single coconut tree spotted along it. It was further front, past another corner!! The sea water at time was no longer crystal clear, and there it was finally few tall coconut trees. All of us arrive there safely and stay for the night (not gonna elaborate the campsite as it was hellish) and kayak back to OBS next morning.

The second expedition was Jungle Trekking. Earlier I point out that there were 2 groups divided. During our Group 1 kayaking, Group 2 was having their trekking to Teluk Batik. So vice versa, when we were trekking they all have to kayak the same way we all did. Not to give in to their complains about trekking (beg berat lah apalah semua), we all point out with our kehangusan that kayaking was $%^&* hellish that trekking. Yes it was. Jungle trekking was not enough to test my limit compared to sea kayaking. Yes it is true that the bagpack was heavy like shit, but since I have good spirit with the jungle (no seasick when walking :p) Tahan was the first watch from Petronas scholars gang and the second (we lost to first group of SIA) to arrive at the campsite. But then, to our disappointments from the kayaking redemption, we left all the not-so-important food (Milo, sugar) for the evening. Since we all arrive early, all of us have nothing to do to kill the time, so the boys went to the Lake (it was actually an abandoned mine) and having a blast berendam dalam air tasik yang digunakan untuk cuci periuk. The previous group say that the campsite was like hell, but hey, compared to the Shawal Beach it was heaven. That night we all play few teka – teki games (all of them were lame) and planned for our performance for the last night.

That’s all the few things I want to share about OBS. The performance was OK, but not enough creativity (only those who understands laughed). Effort was given from all of us. That’s a good point in team building (that’s what they wanted). But despite all the teams effort, there is always an accident among them that widen the crack from the long history. Why is life so complicated? Why can’t we all go on living with the life that we all have long time ago? Those happy faces, the happiness we all had, why does it gone just like that? What force exist in such world to grab it from us like it is made from nothing? Or does it really exist? Does the happiness exist in human heart, or mind? Or is it just some small thought come out from the tiny compartment of our brain? Or it is true what I’m typing here, or just my random thoughts while listening to Aku Skandal Acoustic by Hujan? Or are you reading it carefully or is it just some funny idea that dwell in your mind?

Life is simpler than we thought, we are making it too complicated…

(this post has no pictures since I didn’t brought my camera and the guy who is in charged can’t be reached)