Monthly Archives: July 2009

This is a one shot post about my hobby. I will be using random words together with few to a lot of bad grammar. Thus, I apologize in advanced for such problem. Also for few ignorant things that might occur in this post (as I am not a fully modded super-geek in gaming), I apologize for that too.

Role-playing game has been the best of gaming genre that I ever played. Starting back in my childhood, at age around 7-8 years old. I bought a book that give us a table in the beginning of the book, and then a story begin that take us to assume a role of last warrior, Lone Wolf from a magical school embarking on a journey to defeat the “evil lord” that kill everyone from the school. Within this book I can choose different choice that take me either to next page or or few pages in the back that ultimately show what is the choice I made. And when I entered a battle, I have to use some mathematical senses and dice rolling method to fight the enemy, and with that I will know – in gambling senses – the outcome of my battle. (For more information: wikipedia)

Lone Wolf 1


Here is the uncool thing: because the book was in Malay, and because I am lazy so much, I never really follow the rules in the book and read it through from the beginning to the end. Also, since there is so many books spawn from the series, even until he is no longer a normal soldier and have turned to a grandmaster Yoda level, I gave up. There are few of my friends that took it seriously, yet they still gave up in the end.

It wasn’t later than that I learned about Final Fantasy, a series of RPG video games by Square-Enix (Used to be called SquareSoft before the emerging). Before the the year 2001, I always came to my friend house to check him out playing Final Fantasy VII. That was all I can do until I bought PSone in 2001. But around that time Final Fantasy IX was released, so I was stuck with both game and also my PMR (a mid-school examination).


After the PMR ended in September 2002, I started playing Final Fantasy IX, which I have played it half way before the exam. I played it almost 24/7 I recalled it again. And what did I get in the end?


When the game finished, I felt a strange surge in my body about the game. I can even remember how I felt sad when the game finish. I want something more from the game. I felt satisfied with the game. But I didn’t played it again, I move one with the greatest hit of Final Fantasy, FFVII.


It didn’t took me a long time to finish the game. Together with a guidebook, I mostly finish all the side-quest and the main quest. But at the end, I never felt the same feeiling with finishing FFIX. Probably because for FFIX, it was my first time playing RPG. Probably. But in any ways, FFVII was a greatest game of FF by far (not until I encountered FFXII).


Then in 2003, I bought a PS2, after few month and years waiting for it (I got a good marks in PMR). And my first grab of many games: Kingdom Hearts. There was also FFX, but I was less enthusiast with it compared to KH. Kingdom Hearts brought me to a new level of RPG after quite a while of hiatus after FFVII.


Why wasn’t I felt all that good about FFX? It has a good camera option, a smooth CGI, a good and beautiful looking characters. But I believe it was deluded by KH and and the blitz ball side-game. I hate the blitz ball. Also the grid system that need you to have certain crystal to level up. Not to forget also the dark theme of the story.Yet I think I want to look at it  again some other time. Maybe I might get the feeling again. Sometime in the future, perhaps.


Not to forget also, a tactical action game, Metal Gear Solid. I was enjoyed and thrilled with this game when I played it in PS emulator in PC. But the quality was low, and stupid. So I played it again in PSone later, and I can consider it as the best game series in my gaming years.


Now in this unstoppable changing in gaming generation, new platform and games coming out, but only few games that I’m looking forward: Final Fantasy versus XIII, Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep. But to play both of this game, I need to start saving from now, and maybe after I begin to work in the next two years. All of this can wait. Yes, I have to have patience. Not to forget also few RPG tactical game in PC that are now absolutely ridiculous in the computer specifications (Crysis, Fallout 3, Gears of War, etc.). To play the latest games, you need to spent thousands amount of dollars to get a good PC to play the game. But not to worry, even that is also in my long term list. Buy the disk now, and played it in few years later. LOL.

What is my gaming experience basically? The first game I ever played when I was young, after my father brought back a Nintendo Entertainment System (NES) look-alike (I believe it was replica, made in China probably) was Tetris. With it then, I played few other games, swapping catridges with my cousin that included Contra, Mario, pin-ball and few others that I forgot the names. Then came PC games, cheap PC games such as Dragon Lair, Prince of Persia and a game that is almost like Contra, however I forgot the name.


Pokemon Diamond and Pearl

Then in 2000, I got a Gameboy and with it I played the sensation hit of that time, even now – Pokemon (short for pocket monster). I was so obsessed with it, that I was able to collect all 245 Pokemon together with my friends. Now I wonder where did I put my Gameboy…

Then PSone came shortly after that. Final Fantasy IX, VIII, VII, MGS , WWE (it was a hit for some period), Legend of Mana, Breath of Fire, etc. (I basically forgot the least best).

The mist dangerous guy

The most dangerous guy

PS2 hit me in 2003. Titles included Onimusha (1,2,3, Dawn of Dreams), MGS2 (Sons of Liberty, Snake Eater), Kingdom Hearts, Silent Hill 2, Katamari, Medal of Honor, Zone of Enders, FFX, FFXII (the best yet in my experience – whole new level and I love the concept), God of War 1 & 2 (the best!!), Shadow of the Colossus, etc.






Right now, I have a Nintendo DSi, a new hand-held console from Nintendo, one of the oldest gaming company that still survive until today with their genius gaming platform. But due to financial problem, I can only afford one game now, The World Ends With You and I’m still working on it. One of the coolest thing about this game is I have to stop playing for a few days so that I can level up by shutting down the console. What a unique game.

Well, now hoping for the future, Final Fantasy versus XIII, I will definitely play you!

I love games made by the Kingdom Hearts developers team.


All images are from Google Images.
Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts are all belong to Square-Enix
God of War belong to Sony Game
Metal Gear Solid belong to Konami
Katamari belong to Bandai – Namco

Beautiful, yet Dangerous; you never defeat her in the game
Beautiful, yet Dangerous; you never defeat her in the game


Post ini tiada kaitan dengan lagu “Pupus” nyanyian Dewa. Post ini adalah bertujuan mengisi masa lapang dengan mengemaskini atau in English people say updating.

In Ottawa, I have short supply of money thanks to the self convincing method of not working despite of 2 months freedom. Beginning of 31st July, I’ll be traveling across eastern Canada and down to New York. The plan was devise by Ariff Shazwan, a man that had a dream of traveling across Canada by train during summer, but the plan failed as it cost lot of money and time. Yet, me, the writer had done it in winter and set a record as the first Malaysian students (well, I wasn’t alone) in Canada that ever did it (I assume – masuk bakul angkat sendiri).

About the traveling that will be coming is less than a month, I am afraid of two things for this trip. One, monthly living allowance that I received won’t be enough for the trip and two, the pandemic H1N1 flu.  The whole traveling cost I believe will consume all my living allowance and in the end I wont have enough money to keep me survive, especially for the research project in late August.

For the pandemic case, most of my friends have convince me that chance won’t come again for a short period. I know what I’ll be doing will create “anger” in an unforeseeable future, but for conclusion, I’m going to New York this August. I hope that Allah will protect me from whatsoever danger and virus upon us.

Next, I would like to talk about Death, the pattern of death.

Sounds heavy isn’t it? I am not a good thinker in this topic nor do I have any idea what the hell am I talking about. But I couldn’t imagine how a friend of mine, once was a healthy cherish girl now has gone after few years of suffering. I haven’t met her for 7 years (I’m 22 now, it’s been a while), and the next news I heard about her last year was that she is sick. I don’t know what kind of cancer that she has, but she has undergone treatment over treatment to cure the cancer, and it did work. However in the end, she suffered again somehow and I don’t know what is the reason.

The shocking news came after my friend, which I haven’t chat for almost a year talk to me about this matter. We were chatting early in the morning about her, and after 6 hours later the news came in that she was no longer with us. That was a second time after my grandma’s death that I felt such feeling of not knowing what to do, what to say, and what to think other than sadness and confusion. Damn!

May Allah bless her soul and live in peace with other taqwa people.

This is how life is, everything come and go. We on the other hand has to continue living all the way until our time comes.